I have sorely neglected this blog. It’s been nearly a year since my last post. I am amazed that I’m still getting any traffic at all, but still several people visit this humble little site everyday.
I am doing well. Things have not changed for me circumstantially, but it’s okay. God still has me on a journey and is still teaching me many things along the way. I read a quote in a devotional this week that said, “If God brings it to me it must be for my good.” Reminds me of a verse I have used as my life verse in the last several years. “And we know that God works all things for the good of those who love Him and are called according to this purpose.” (Romans 8:28). Not not all things are good, but He works all things for the good even our own screw ups!
Let’s just face it…. some things are just bad. Don’t I know! You can sugar-coat things all day long and/or live in denial, but some things just down right stink. STILL, I remember that Bible verse and the above quote from Streams in the Desert.
I don’t know what the future holds, and that’s as it should be. I’m hoping for a period of stable times, devoted love, and not facing a life crisis daily. But on days I don’t feel like I can go on God always gives me the ability to make it through that day, and then the next one and the next one. They key is leaning on Him for everything, and I have to remind myself of that daily.
Tomorrow is Mother’s Day, and while that day doesn’t carry as much emotional weight as it used to for me there is a bit of melancholy associated with it. I acknowledge it, feel it, shed a few tears if I must, and then I move on with my day. I don’t allow myself to feel isolated by these types of holidays anymore. This particular holiday is not for me, but I won’t allow that fact to cripple me emotionally anymore and make me feel “less than”. There is a difference in acknowledgement of one’s emotions (it’s not good to repress either) and letting them cripple you. This applies to all situations we face.
So to all of you non-moms out there you are not alone, and just because one Hallmark holiday doesn’t apply to you doesn’t mean you are worthless. You are EXACTLY who and where God wants you to be. And if He brought it, it IS for your good even if it doesn’t feel particularly lovely.
Hugs and Prayers my Friends!